My Definition of Success
Doing things that are expensive, not monetizable, and purely for leisure. Some find it questionable, wasteful, and reckless.
But that is probably how I am treating my past younger self with better things in life. These little girls (including my ancestors) who just had to struggle to become independent too early indeed need some pampering.
If my definition of success is to be able to heal our intergenerational wounds by acknowledging their sacrifices and their pain, to be able to soothe my inner child by doing the things I love and to be able to give/help willingly others without any reward — then I think I have succeeded in life already.
Going to therapy helped me learn more about myself by seeing my life by allowing myself to be vulnerable. Dancing and creating art helped me to connect with the true passion that I had when I was younger but then had to give up pursuing. Volunteering and helping the community without monetary compensation made me feel capable and gave me so much meaning.
Money is just a tool for me to set me free from hunger, restrictions, and suffering.
Gone are those days when I was in warrior mode just trying to prove my worth to the world. All I want now is to gently treat myself well with all the goodness that this life can offer me.
Originally published at https://erinne0217.wordpress.com on June 3, 2023.
